The Circle of Love

In Summary;

•  I learnt not to fall in love but walk in it. I learnt that love is one way, she that loves you, you find it hard to reciprocate what she offers and she that you love, loves someone else and to her you are a good friend or a pervert…

Our lives revolve around love, some say love makes earth go round, which to me is rocket science. A few months ago, I was in love. Then, love meant something, love made earth go round, then love could turn the world.

I could proudly tell myself and friends that I was home with some newly found love. Still, I don’t understand the chemistry… forget about the moles and physical chemistry back in school, it’s a story for another day. This chemistry was much more complicated, much more profound with a stronger will and deadly force within. That is my version of love.

So let’s cut the chase, unless, over 5 to 10 break – ups are part of your life, in most cases ladies are much more experienced in this, you can’t understand this. It’s like trying to explain the legendary level in FIFA to ladies, they have no idea what that is. So, the most difficult phase in a man’s life dawned, I was stupidly in love and my lady walked out on me.

This was a hard time but a memory worth having, everything seemed so unreal, after shouting about your love from the top of balconies in blast noises and profile pictures all over social media, it was time to go through the humbling phase; going through the publicity once again but this time… talking of my break up and patching up my broken heart.

A month later, it became crystal clear to me, on my gloomy and wrinkled face that she wasn’t going to come back. This was real, I had two options; rebound or phase it. I decided to face the phase. I was single and sad. The vocabulary; happiness I would force later. Nights became longer, my bed was like hectares of wilderness – big to fully roll on in a single night alone and icy cold, her pictures became scary and those three weeks after, were the toughest.

I was a bachelor, I hated love so much, with a lot of zeal, that when I saw or heard that someone was in love I laughed it off. Most of the time, friends asked me about love, if you believed me then, it goes without saying. Being a bachelor, I stopped caring and turned a blind eye to everyone.

I learnt not to fall in love but walk in it. I learnt that love is one way, she that loves you, you find it hard to reciprocate what she offers and she that you love, loves someone else and to her you are a good friend or a pervert.

As time goes by, one heals, and remembers the person that made them stronger and try to forget the love they had, as a seed of love buried, a glow sprouts and dares you again to love if you have the courage and the circle of love is maintained. 


 Says Moses Nyaemo.